My testimony.... Hope it's good to you...

diamarie · 01-31-2006, 06:15 PM

My Testimony:

Well,I was never really a Christian when I was a kid.My parent(s) were hindu,and I never understood what my brother was.I went to a Christian primary school(even though my principal was Muslim...This I don't get),and finally graduated and went to a Presbyterian High School.So in many ways,I was educated into Christ,but nothing more than that.I was no more of a Christian than someone who didn't believe in anything..At all...

When I was 10,I got into a really bad social situation with some kids from my school.And I started writing..Really writing...I remember going up to my room,and writing letters to God asking Him to take my life away..And crying myself to sleep every night...I wasn't happy.I wasn't religious either.This lasted for a while,and I started to get into habits that people generally don't do..I mean it was so harsh..

Well anyway,when I got into high school,I realized that I needed something more to keep me going.I was in and out of depression,and my morality,self esteem and confidence were abandoned in a gutter somewhere.Around that time,my dad was diagnosed with a terminal illness;leukemia.We knew then,he may not make it...Over the next two years,I sort of grew close to Christ and God...I'm not even sure how,but it was like I was supposed to be close to Him then,because my father was sick..

I still struggled a lot with these habits,that I didn't care if anything bad happened to me.I began dreaming to die again,and I was so close to taking my life...I don't understand why I didn't do it then...Then,the most terrible thing I could think about happened,my dad died.This shattered any thread of belief I had about God.About then,I began getting close to a friend(who before,was just another face in the crowd),and I don't really understand this either,but I began drawing back to God.

She showed me that everything would work out for those that love God and believe,and I began to be blessed through her.I still crawl back to old habits,and struggle with them,but not as much,and I have more control over them.I'm fighting to get back close to God,and believing in Him again.My past still haunts me,but I get through it..God healed me multiple times,and I'm grateful for it...Everyday..I still fall back sometimes,but I get through it...

Trace+Malii · 02-03-2006, 01:54 AM

wow!!! that is an incredible testimony!!! God will use that for his kingdom!!!

Jesdisciple · 02-11-2006, 09:38 PM

God moves in mysterious ways

. Sweet testimony. Thanks for sharing!!

diamarie · 02-12-2006, 11:14 AM

Thanks... .. Hopefully it won't be in vain!

princess--emma · 06-15-2006, 04:12 PM

Wow! awsome testmony!

Squirrly · 06-16-2006, 12:41 AM

amazing testimony

Godsgal · 06-21-2006, 08:56 AM

Wow! Thanks for sharing that testimony...it was a blessing to read. God is an awesome God who will never let us down!!

01-31-2006, 06:15 PM	#1
diamarie diamarie Edit Disciple	My testimony.... Hope it's good to you... My Testimony: Well,I was never really a Christian when I was a kid.My parent(s) were hindu,and I never understood what my brother was.I went to a Christian primary school(even though my principal was Muslim...This I don't get),and finally graduated and went to a Presbyterian High School.So in many ways,I was educated into Christ,but nothing more than that.I was no more of a Christian than someone who didn't believe in anything..At all... When I was 10,I got into a really bad social situation with some kids from my school.And I started writing..Really writing...I remember going up to my room,and writing letters to God asking Him to take my life away..And crying myself to sleep every night...I wasn't happy.I wasn't religious either.This lasted for a while,and I started to get into habits that people generally don't do..I mean it was so harsh.. Well anyway,when I got into high school,I realized that I needed something more to keep me going.I was in and out of depression,and my morality,self esteem and confidence were abandoned in a gutter somewhere.Around that time,my dad was diagnosed with a terminal illness;leukemia.We knew then,he may not make it...Over the next two years,I sort of grew close to Christ and God...I'm not even sure how,but it was like I was supposed to be close to Him then,because my father was sick.. I still struggled a lot with these habits,that I didn't care if anything bad happened to me.I began dreaming to die again,and I was so close to taking my life...I don't understand why I didn't do it then...Then,the most terrible thing I could think about happened,my dad died.This shattered any thread of belief I had about God.About then,I began getting close to a friend(who before,was just another face in the crowd),and I don't really understand this either,but I began drawing back to God. She showed me that everything would work out for those that love God and believe,and I began to be blessed through her.I still crawl back to old habits,and struggle with them,but not as much,and I have more control over them.I'm fighting to get back close to God,and believing in Him again.My past still haunts me,but I get through it..God healed me multiple times,and I'm grateful for it...Everyday..I still fall back sometimes,but I get through it...
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02-03-2006, 01:54 AM	#2
Trace+Malii Trace+Malii Edit Disciple	wow!!! that is an incredible testimony!!! God will use that for his kingdom!!! __________________ When the power of love overcomes the love of power...... the world will know peace.
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02-11-2006, 09:38 PM	#3
Jesdisciple Jesdisciple Edit Prophet/Prophetess	God moves in mysterious ways . Sweet testimony. Thanks for sharing!! __________________ In ALL things, †<><>♥!!! [><> = Jesus(I) CHrist, God's(THeous) Son(Uios), Savior] Always remember that it's not you staying strong, but you staying beside the Strong God. We will persevere to ^the end^ and celebrate to n0ne. The soul is willing, the body is weak, the spirit is determined! The only righteous thing I ever do is to let God into my heart; even that was originally selfish and I couldn't do it if He weren't available.
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02-12-2006, 11:14 AM	#4
diamarie diamarie Edit Disciple	Thanks... .. Hopefully it won't be in vain!
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06-15-2006, 04:12 PM	#5
princess--emma princess--emma Edit Disciple	Wow! awsome testmony! __________________ ~~Emma~~ generation transformer Stop trying to stop; start trying to start!
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06-16-2006, 12:41 AM	#6
Squirrly Squirrly Edit Prophet/Prophetess	amazing testimony __________________ **But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy,peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. Let us not become conceited, provoking and envying each other.** He knows what you did last summer . . . and today.
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06-21-2006, 08:56 AM	#7
Godsgal Godsgal needs to do some reorganizing... Edit in the palm of His hand	Wow! Thanks for sharing that testimony...it was a blessing to read. God is an awesome God who will never let us down!! __________________ "Jesus, You be lifted high, You be lifted high; You be lifted high in my life, O God. For it's You that they seek not I. Jesus You be lifted high." - Leeland ~“Any concern too small to be turned into a prayer is too small to be made into a burden.” – Corrie Ten Boom ~Humility is a most strange thing. The moment that you think you have acquired it is just the moment you have lost it. - Bernard Meltzer ~
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