Turned my Sorrow into Joy

joy-girl · 10-31-2005, 08:43 PM

Its always been a joke in my past, because my name is Joy... and whenever as a child I got sad, or grumpy; my parents and siblings would tease me and go , "Ahhh, isn't your name Joy?"

But I believe my name has more meaning to it than that. I was meant to be named Joy, because thats what God intended me to be... a joy by spreading the good news of Jesus Christ into the world.

But before I was saved it was the exact opposite. I was 'sorrow' itself. Even at a young age, satan got a grip on my life. My grandfather had always struggled with porn, and once when I was down there, i found some of the magazines.

with a normals 5-yr-olds curiosity, i looked at them... and was defiled as a young child. i began struggling with masturbation, and to cover up my sin became highly skilled at lying. I also then began to struggle with depression. I cut mysefl to release the hurt that was shut up inside of me.

My Christian parents tried to help me, but I rebelled... i blamed them for a lt of things that happened to me. My dad was also highly involved in porn, which meant that I was exposed to a lot of R-rated movies.

and this was all before the age of 8.

I tried a lot of different things to make me happy... including some perverted stuff that i don't feel free to share with you all. I was in terrible bondage to masturbation. I also hated myself terribly.

I became terrified of people, in a way thats hard for most of you to understand. I had developed a slight form of schizophrenia, which is a mental disease that affects the brain. I always felt like everyone hated me. By the time I was 13, it had gotten so bad that I was totally inverted. I never talked to anyone, not even my closest friends. I hated myself.

I'm not sure if i was saved at that time. i had a salvation experience when i was 10., but at this time i wanted nothing to do with God. He was a faraway object in my mind... not one to help me.

"hell is too good for me," I would bemoan to myself. Salvation was far away... a past experience.

Then one night, when i was at my cousins house... I crept into the kitchen and got a knife. I held it up to my throat; and was about to jab it in when i heard a voice call my name. I fell to the floor in fear... wondering if my cousin had found me. Then it spoke, clearly to my heart.

"Wait one more night. Just wait for Me one more night."

I dropped the knife in my hand. If God was real, and if it was His voice I heard... then I might as well wait.

The following night, my parents brought me to a revival meeting, with a speaker by the name of Keith Daniel. He was an elderly man. He spoke kindly and gently, as if straight to my heart. I sobbed the entire meeting. At the alter call, i got up.

That night was the first of my awesome enconters with God. I met Him in a real way, that left me never the same. I have had many more encounters since then...

Now, I am free completely from masturbation and lust.

I am free from self-hate, and anger. The docter says all my signs of schizophrenia are gone.

I'm free from man-fear, now I can converse easily, even with strangers.

I'm free from depression, and I've been set free to live up to my name.

In short my life is summed up in 2 verses...

Isa 61:3 To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he might be glorified.

Psa 30:5 For his anger endureth but a moment; in his favour is life: weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning.

jkplayschess · 10-31-2005, 10:12 PM

hallelujah, God is good!

stellie · 11-01-2005, 01:13 AM

wow that's an amazing testimony!!!!!!

illumination · 11-01-2005, 05:16 AM

thats a awsome testimony joy and ur a awsome person go bless luv ya peace michelle

God Rox · 11-01-2005, 07:15 PM

wow thats really good, i enjoyed readin that!!

jcdesertvoice · 11-01-2005, 07:31 PM

Joy that is amazing. To know you now I would never have thought. You are truly an inspiration. Your testimony is awesome and very powerful.

joy-girl · 11-01-2005, 07:56 PM

yeah... many people do not believe my testimony. God has even gone the extra mile; in now I'm pretty outgoing, and I love starting conversations with strangers. I love life, I'm never depressed, I love just breathing...

God is good... and mighty to save.

To HIM be the glory....

christsgirly · 11-01-2005, 09:01 PM

Joy,that is such an AWESOME testimony!it's obvious God has a BIG plan for you!Keep strong and stay joyful!lol

10-31-2005, 08:43 PM	#1
joy-girl joy-girl Edit Prophet/Prophetess	Turned my Sorrow into Joy Its always been a joke in my past, because my name is Joy... and whenever as a child I got sad, or grumpy; my parents and siblings would tease me and go , "Ahhh, isn't your name Joy?" But I believe my name has more meaning to it than that. I was meant to be named Joy, because thats what God intended me to be... a joy by spreading the good news of Jesus Christ into the world. But before I was saved it was the exact opposite. I was 'sorrow' itself. Even at a young age, satan got a grip on my life. My grandfather had always struggled with porn, and once when I was down there, i found some of the magazines. with a normals 5-yr-olds curiosity, i looked at them... and was defiled as a young child. i began struggling with masturbation, and to cover up my sin became highly skilled at lying. I also then began to struggle with depression. I cut mysefl to release the hurt that was shut up inside of me. My Christian parents tried to help me, but I rebelled... i blamed them for a lt of things that happened to me. My dad was also highly involved in porn, which meant that I was exposed to a lot of R-rated movies. and this was all before the age of 8. I tried a lot of different things to make me happy... including some perverted stuff that i don't feel free to share with you all. I was in terrible bondage to masturbation. I also hated myself terribly. I became terrified of people, in a way thats hard for most of you to understand. I had developed a slight form of schizophrenia, which is a mental disease that affects the brain. I always felt like everyone hated me. By the time I was 13, it had gotten so bad that I was totally inverted. I never talked to anyone, not even my closest friends. I hated myself. I'm not sure if i was saved at that time. i had a salvation experience when i was 10., but at this time i wanted nothing to do with God. He was a faraway object in my mind... not one to help me. "hell is too good for me," I would bemoan to myself. Salvation was far away... a past experience. Then one night, when i was at my cousins house... I crept into the kitchen and got a knife. I held it up to my throat; and was about to jab it in when i heard a voice call my name. I fell to the floor in fear... wondering if my cousin had found me. Then it spoke, clearly to my heart. "Wait one more night. Just wait for Me one more night." I dropped the knife in my hand. If God was real, and if it was His voice I heard... then I might as well wait. The following night, my parents brought me to a revival meeting, with a speaker by the name of Keith Daniel. He was an elderly man. He spoke kindly and gently, as if straight to my heart. I sobbed the entire meeting. At the alter call, i got up. That night was the first of my awesome enconters with God. I met Him in a real way, that left me never the same. I have had many more encounters since then... Now, I am free completely from masturbation and lust. I am free from self-hate, and anger. The docter says all my signs of schizophrenia are gone. I'm free from man-fear, now I can converse easily, even with strangers. I'm free from depression, and I've been set free to live up to my name. In short my life is summed up in 2 verses... Isa 61:3 To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he might be glorified. Psa 30:5 For his anger endureth but a moment; in his favour is life: weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning. __________________ Sona si latine loqueris!! http://www.therebelution.com/ “I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen: not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else.” -CS Lewis
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10-31-2005, 10:12 PM	#2
jkplayschess jkplayschess Edit Prophet/Prophetess	hallelujah, God is good!
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11-01-2005, 01:13 AM	#3
stellie stellie just is! Edit Evangelist/Missionary	wow that's an amazing testimony!!!!!!
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11-01-2005, 05:16 AM	#4
illumination illumination is very worried Edit Prophet/Prophetess	thats a awsome testimony joy and ur a awsome person go bless luv ya peace michelle __________________ " If I say i can forgive but i cannot forget , as if the God who twice a day washes all the sands on all the shores of all the beaches in the world cannot wash those vile thoughts from my mind then i know nothing of calvary's love"-Amy Carmichel
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11-01-2005, 07:15 PM	#5
God Rox God Rox Edit Disciple	wow thats really good, i enjoyed readin that!! __________________ God Is Great God Bless God Rox (aka aisha) Job 4:11 & 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 rock Makybe Diva is da best mare eva
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11-01-2005, 07:31 PM	#6
jcdesertvoice jcdesertvoice Edit Prophet/Prophetess	Joy that is amazing. To know you now I would never have thought. You are truly an inspiration. Your testimony is awesome and very powerful. __________________ Go ye into all the world and preach the gospel to every nation for you are a word out of the mouth of God and you will not return unto Him void.
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11-01-2005, 07:56 PM	#7
joy-girl joy-girl Edit Prophet/Prophetess	yeah... many people do not believe my testimony. God has even gone the extra mile; in now I'm pretty outgoing, and I love starting conversations with strangers. I love life, I'm never depressed, I love just breathing... God is good... and mighty to save. To HIM be the glory.... __________________ Sona si latine loqueris!! http://www.therebelution.com/ “I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen: not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else.” -CS Lewis
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11-01-2005, 09:01 PM	#8
christsgirly christsgirly knows God as Savior! Edit Prophet/Prophetess	Joy,that is such an AWESOME testimony!it's obvious God has a BIG plan for you!Keep strong and stay joyful!lol __________________ We often make life altering decisions because we live for the moment and not for the days ahead.-Brooke Broussard
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