Jace's Testimony

Jace · 08-15-2005, 09:22 PM

well, if you insist. I'll put it here.

I'm Jace, and I've had problems!
I was born into a Christian family, and I grew up in a Christian grade school. I always heard about God and I was taught he was my Saviour, but being little, I didn't much understand until I was 7. On Christmas Night, I went to mass with my parents. The church was just so beautiful, all I could do was stare in awe. Being seven, it wasn't that hard

. That night, I got to talk one-on-one with my favorite preist. He told me that I only saw the shell of faith.. that I would need to submerse myself to truely learn. I did. And wow did I learn. I began studying the Bible intensly... I prayed nightly for all my friends and family. I lived as God wanted me to. For 5 years I lived the high life. Then I turned 12 and things went bad. My grandfather died. One of my childhood friends was killed in a car crash, and my prayer pal (an older teen in my church, who helped me through the workings of mass) commit suicide. My parents began being abusive towards me, and they got in fights with eachother alot. Everything that was important to me was being destroyed right in front of me, and I had no control over it. Since I couldn't blame anyone else, I blamed God. I fell from faith, hiding from Him. I tried dozens... maybe a hundred religions. I've been up and down the road, from die hard Christian to a knife toting satanist. I tried wicca, paganism, bhudism, hindu, muslim, and even more less known religions, searching for an excuse to forget God. I fell into depression when I was 13, so I began cutting myself. It took away the pain. I tried killing myself, three times. The most recent was almost exactly a year ago. I jumped off a parking structure. It broke both my legs, my arm, and my collarbone. The times before that I tried bleeding dry at thr wrists and poisoning myself with a cocktail of various drugs. God hasn't let me die yet, and last year, when I realized I was still alive, I thought "I must be here for a reason." Thats what started me back on the track to God. I asked for prayer every chance I got, I read redemption stories and I started praying again, myself. Then I had a "right place at the right time" incident, two nights ago. I was sitting in a chat room, and had just written an email, when someone who was nicked Poet4Christ started talking to me. During the conversation, my story came out about how I had been lost from faith, and how I had asked for prayer. They prayed with me. They explained to me in terms I could understand that God really did love me. I confessed to them, and though they may not be a priest or someone that one would normally confess to, they felt right. I then confessed to God. They gave me Bible verses. Psalms 37:4, Proverbs 3:5-6, Ephesians 5:1-2 and Philipians 3:14. Ephesians 2:10 and 2 Tim 2:15. In that order, it highlights a path... Then, I prayed. It was repeat after me and I don't know if it was made up on the spot or if it can be found somewhere. At the end of the prayer, I knew, that God had accepted me back into His arms. This has been the turning point of my life. I was Saved again!Now, I'm as I was at 7 years old... I read my Bible daily, I pray every hour, and I live in the footsteps of Jesus Christ.

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Father God,
I ask that you anoint this man. Give him your words so that wherever he goes he speaks truth. Create in him a new heart, and renew a right spirit. Lord, I ask that if it is necessary, you heal any pain, whether it be emotional, physical, spiritual, or psychological, just heal it right now, Lord. Speak to him, his eyes, ears, heart, mind and soul are open for Your guidance. He cries as Eli did, "Speak, Lord, for Your servant is listening." Come Holy Spirit, baptize this, your servant. He desires nothing but to serve You. In Jesus name I pray.
Amen.

That is the prayer that the person first prayed with me. And that was where I realized that I could bring myself back to God. Thank you, Lord, for acting through this, your servant. Thank you, Poet4Christ, for your words of hope that encouraged me.

Psalms 37:4 - Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart.
Proverbs 3:5-6 - Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.
Ephesians 5:1-2 - Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.
Philippians 3:14 - I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.
Ephesians 2:10 - For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
2 Timothy 2:15 - Do your best to present yourself to God as one approved, a workman who does not need to be ashamed and who correctly handles the word of truth.

These were the verses that I was told to read. Through them, I saw a path to God, and I knew that if I took that path spiritually, I would be ready for redemption. I first delighted myeself in the Lord. By this, I mean that I came to believe in Him, and I knew that he held the power to forgive my sins. Then I trusted in the Lord. By this, I trusted that He would take me back, He only waited for me to return. Then I imitated God. In this, I forgave all my sins, and the sins against me. I let go of all the earthly pains I felt. Then I moved towards my goal. This is exactly what it sounds like. I approached the God I came to know. All paths are rocks, and this one was no exception. I then remembered that I was God’s. I knew then that I could do anything, as He believes in me, just as I in Him. I then presented myself in front of God. I asked Him to forgive all my sins, and to allow me back into His house. He greeted me with open arms.

Father God, I come before you tonight, at the foot of the cross, confessing all my sins, breaking free from all my chains holding me from you. I realize Lord that I am a sinner, but through the bloodshed of your Son, I am forgiven. I receive that sacrifice, that gift. I receive Your salvation. I accept you as my Lord and Savior. Come into my heart once again, Lord. I am Yours. Here I am, use me as You will. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.

This was the prayer I said that brought me back into God’s arms. This prayer moved me in such a way that I was in tears before I finished it.
I cannot thank the people who helped me through my ordeal enough. God has acted through you, my friends, and you have done well.

I am redeemed, and I will sing it into the mountains, I will cry it over the oceans, I will shout it in the cities! I will tell the world of God’s Grace and Glory. I will rejoice in this, His day! He has brought me peace, an endless peace of spirit. In Him, I know I am safe. In Him, I know I am complete.

anyway, thats my story... or the edited version anyway

jcdesertvoice · 08-15-2005, 09:40 PM

Hey Jace awesome testimony and welcome to AY.

PureOxygen · 08-15-2005, 10:01 PM

Wow. Just... wow. I'm so glad you're a part of the family of God!!

That's a testimony to: "There's a God-shaped hole in all of us."

Keep praisin!!

HeavenBound · 08-15-2005, 10:10 PM

That's a great testimony you have there!

illumination · 08-15-2005, 11:41 PM

hey jace thats really cool testinomy glad everything worked out welcome to AY inchrist michelle

Living4Him · 08-16-2005, 08:27 AM

Praise the Lord! We all go through hardships, but we have to trust the Lord through it all. Praise the Lord for you and your moving testimony

Ed · 08-16-2005, 04:06 PM

Thats amazing!!!! Hmmm just trust in God as the devil tries to bring your baggage back up! I know it can sometimes take years to work thru it - spesh from abuse and the after affects of satanism and wiccan rituals etc. But God is good and has the power to free us completely eh?! So great to hear your back in teh family and thats a powerful testimony to the fact only God can satisfy us!

Shelle723 · 08-16-2005, 09:52 PM

What an amazing testimony! Thanks so much for sharing it with us.

Baggs · 08-18-2005, 04:47 AM

That's a moving testimony! I'm so glad you are here to tell us that story, God is forgiving and He must have some purpose for you. I pray that His love will wash over you. Also, I hope you find more purpose and meaning now you're back in God's arms.

Jace · 08-23-2005, 03:04 PM

thank you all for your kind words

Feels good to know that people actually do care about your story

08-15-2005, 09:22 PM	#1
Jace Jace Edit AY! Newbie	well, if you insist. I'll put it here. I'm Jace, and I've had problems! I was born into a Christian family, and I grew up in a Christian grade school. I always heard about God and I was taught he was my Saviour, but being little, I didn't much understand until I was 7. On Christmas Night, I went to mass with my parents. The church was just so beautiful, all I could do was stare in awe. Being seven, it wasn't that hard . That night, I got to talk one-on-one with my favorite preist. He told me that I only saw the shell of faith.. that I would need to submerse myself to truely learn. I did. And wow did I learn. I began studying the Bible intensly... I prayed nightly for all my friends and family. I lived as God wanted me to. For 5 years I lived the high life. Then I turned 12 and things went bad. My grandfather died. One of my childhood friends was killed in a car crash, and my prayer pal (an older teen in my church, who helped me through the workings of mass) commit suicide. My parents began being abusive towards me, and they got in fights with eachother alot. Everything that was important to me was being destroyed right in front of me, and I had no control over it. Since I couldn't blame anyone else, I blamed God. I fell from faith, hiding from Him. I tried dozens... maybe a hundred religions. I've been up and down the road, from die hard Christian to a knife toting satanist. I tried wicca, paganism, bhudism, hindu, muslim, and even more less known religions, searching for an excuse to forget God. I fell into depression when I was 13, so I began cutting myself. It took away the pain. I tried killing myself, three times. The most recent was almost exactly a year ago. I jumped off a parking structure. It broke both my legs, my arm, and my collarbone. The times before that I tried bleeding dry at thr wrists and poisoning myself with a cocktail of various drugs. God hasn't let me die yet, and last year, when I realized I was still alive, I thought "I must be here for a reason." Thats what started me back on the track to God. I asked for prayer every chance I got, I read redemption stories and I started praying again, myself. Then I had a "right place at the right time" incident, two nights ago. I was sitting in a chat room, and had just written an email, when someone who was nicked Poet4Christ started talking to me. During the conversation, my story came out about how I had been lost from faith, and how I had asked for prayer. They prayed with me. They explained to me in terms I could understand that God really did love me. I confessed to them, and though they may not be a priest or someone that one would normally confess to, they felt right. I then confessed to God. They gave me Bible verses. Psalms 37:4, Proverbs 3:5-6, Ephesians 5:1-2 and Philipians 3:14. Ephesians 2:10 and 2 Tim 2:15. In that order, it highlights a path... Then, I prayed. It was repeat after me and I don't know if it was made up on the spot or if it can be found somewhere. At the end of the prayer, I knew, that God had accepted me back into His arms. This has been the turning point of my life. I was Saved again!Now, I'm as I was at 7 years old... I read my Bible daily, I pray every hour, and I live in the footsteps of Jesus Christ. More info: Father God, I ask that you anoint this man. Give him your words so that wherever he goes he speaks truth. Create in him a new heart, and renew a right spirit. Lord, I ask that if it is necessary, you heal any pain, whether it be emotional, physical, spiritual, or psychological, just heal it right now, Lord. Speak to him, his eyes, ears, heart, mind and soul are open for Your guidance. He cries as Eli did, "Speak, Lord, for Your servant is listening." Come Holy Spirit, baptize this, your servant. He desires nothing but to serve You. In Jesus name I pray. Amen. That is the prayer that the person first prayed with me. And that was where I realized that I could bring myself back to God. Thank you, Lord, for acting through this, your servant. Thank you, Poet4Christ, for your words of hope that encouraged me. Psalms 37:4 - Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart. Proverbs 3:5-6 - Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight. Ephesians 5:1-2 - Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God. Philippians 3:14 - I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. Ephesians 2:10 - For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do. 2 Timothy 2:15 - Do your best to present yourself to God as one approved, a workman who does not need to be ashamed and who correctly handles the word of truth. These were the verses that I was told to read. Through them, I saw a path to God, and I knew that if I took that path spiritually, I would be ready for redemption. I first delighted myeself in the Lord. By this, I mean that I came to believe in Him, and I knew that he held the power to forgive my sins. Then I trusted in the Lord. By this, I trusted that He would take me back, He only waited for me to return. Then I imitated God. In this, I forgave all my sins, and the sins against me. I let go of all the earthly pains I felt. Then I moved towards my goal. This is exactly what it sounds like. I approached the God I came to know. All paths are rocks, and this one was no exception. I then remembered that I was God’s. I knew then that I could do anything, as He believes in me, just as I in Him. I then presented myself in front of God. I asked Him to forgive all my sins, and to allow me back into His house. He greeted me with open arms. Father God, I come before you tonight, at the foot of the cross, confessing all my sins, breaking free from all my chains holding me from you. I realize Lord that I am a sinner, but through the bloodshed of your Son, I am forgiven. I receive that sacrifice, that gift. I receive Your salvation. I accept you as my Lord and Savior. Come into my heart once again, Lord. I am Yours. Here I am, use me as You will. In Jesus name I pray. Amen. This was the prayer I said that brought me back into God’s arms. This prayer moved me in such a way that I was in tears before I finished it. I cannot thank the people who helped me through my ordeal enough. God has acted through you, my friends, and you have done well. I am redeemed, and I will sing it into the mountains, I will cry it over the oceans, I will shout it in the cities! I will tell the world of God’s Grace and Glory. I will rejoice in this, His day! He has brought me peace, an endless peace of spirit. In Him, I know I am safe. In Him, I know I am complete. anyway, thats my story... or the edited version anyway
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08-15-2005, 09:40 PM	#2
jcdesertvoice jcdesertvoice Edit Prophet/Prophetess	Hey Jace awesome testimony and welcome to AY. __________________ Go ye into all the world and preach the gospel to every nation for you are a word out of the mouth of God and you will not return unto Him void.
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08-15-2005, 10:01 PM	#3
PureOxygen PureOxygen Edit Super Moderator	Wow. Just... wow. I'm so glad you're a part of the family of God!! That's a testimony to: "There's a God-shaped hole in all of us." Keep praisin!! __________________ "Therefore, my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain." -1 Corinthians 15:58 (NIV)
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08-15-2005, 10:10 PM	#4
HeavenBound HeavenBound Edit Prophet/Prophetess	That's a great testimony you have there! __________________ "We have just enough Religion to make us HATE, but not enough to make us LOVE one Another..." -Jonathan Swift Who could hate a Man, who thought about YOU on the Cross?
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08-15-2005, 11:41 PM	#5
illumination illumination is very worried Edit Prophet/Prophetess	hey jace thats really cool testinomy glad everything worked out welcome to AY inchrist michelle __________________ " If I say i can forgive but i cannot forget , as if the God who twice a day washes all the sands on all the shores of all the beaches in the world cannot wash those vile thoughts from my mind then i know nothing of calvary's love"-Amy Carmichel
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08-16-2005, 08:27 AM	#6
Living4Him Living4Him Edit AY! Newbie	Praise the Lord! We all go through hardships, but we have to trust the Lord through it all. Praise the Lord for you and your moving testimony __________________ *No one can steal your joy unless you give them permission! I must decrease, so He can increase!
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08-16-2005, 04:06 PM	#7
Ed Ed Edit Prophet/Prophetess	Thats amazing!!!! Hmmm just trust in God as the devil tries to bring your baggage back up! I know it can sometimes take years to work thru it - spesh from abuse and the after affects of satanism and wiccan rituals etc. But God is good and has the power to free us completely eh?! So great to hear your back in teh family and thats a powerful testimony to the fact only God can satisfy us!
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08-16-2005, 09:52 PM	#8
Shelle723 Shelle723 Edit Disciple	What an amazing testimony! Thanks so much for sharing it with us.
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08-18-2005, 04:47 AM	#9
Baggs Baggs Edit Disciple	That's a moving testimony! I'm so glad you are here to tell us that story, God is forgiving and He must have some purpose for you. I pray that His love will wash over you. Also, I hope you find more purpose and meaning now you're back in God's arms. __________________ No longer Christian. Sorry, feel free to hassle me if you must but please, no standard evangelism patters...they get old.
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08-23-2005, 03:04 PM	#10
Jace Jace Edit AY! Newbie	thank you all for your kind words Feels good to know that people actually do care about your story
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