Hard times, tough love, and a rude awakening

[ixoye2007]

Last year, I had switched churches and had been recently filled with the Holy Spirit. I started to grow so quickly! I was amazed. God started to make more sense to me and His voice started to become clearer to me. It was awesome. I thought that nothing could get in between me and my God. That was clearly the wrong attitude to have.
I didn't grow up in a christian home, I was pretty much the only "Jesus" my famly knew. It was hard. Really hard. I knew that none of my family was going to Heaven but it wasnt really "hitting me". Then in April, things took a turn for the worse. My uncle had been in a work related accident down in Indiana. No one really took it seriously, we just thought it was a few broken bones. We went to see him in the hospital and thats when we realized how serious it was. His kidneys were failing due to the accident and his legs were both broken. I was in shock. I prayed and prayed. And I wanted to believe that God would heal him. But later that night...he died. I have never experienced death in my family before so it was numbing. I couldnt believe the pain...it was horrible. Not to mention I was dumbfounded...I seriously had thought that God would heal him.
Not too long after the funeral..my family had started to recieve letters and gifts that would often say "hes in a better place now". That was when I was really convicted. He wasnt a christian. And I knew that I had let him down. I never talked to him about Jesus and in my heart I felt like I had condemned him to hell. I started to wish that I would have died because I know that I would be with the Lord and my uncle would have another chance. I fell away from God soon after. I started toying with drugs and alcohal. I would steal things and get high and drunk and literaly self destruct. I wouldnt go back to church...even though I wanted to....something was holding me back. Months went by and finally in Febuary, I was planning on going to a huge party with some of my friends after school since it was Friday. I remember not wanting to go...I missed my relationship with God. That night while I was getting around, a song by Relient K had been intoduced to the secular stations. Be My Escape. The lyrics hit me. "I gotta get outta here. Im stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake. I gotta get outta here and Im begging you, im begging you, im begging you to be my escape".
That whole night that song kept playing in my head. After I left the party with some friends, we went to a friends house nearby. I decided to stay outside with 2 other people and just relax. Well someone decided to go for a walk and got stopped by the cops not 10 minutes after I had "prayed" the song to God. Only it was "im stuck inside this life I fell into by mistake. Be my escape Lord...get me outta here" My parents had to come get me and i got an MIP. That was Gods way of waking me up.
I had be lost long enough and He did what He had to, in order to get through to me. I am so thankful for that night....without it, I wouldnt be where I am today. My relationship with God is amazing. And I am prepared for the worst everyday. Because I know that Satan hates how close I am to his worst enemy and he will do anything to break me. I know that I have to live by every second because that is all it takes to fall away---a second. A second to say yes, or a second to say no. I am also more aware of my attitude. I strive to follow in Jesus's footsteps. I know that I will never come close but I also know that to so many people, my family especially I am the only "Jesus" they will ever know.

[Shelle723]

Awesome testimony! Thanks for sharing!

Very awsome testimoney!! It was very touching. I loved it. God is just so great