Please help

Hey everyone, this is my first post so please... Be gentle. I have a really big problem, its kinda hard to talk about and it only ever leaves me confused and depressed. Well I guess Ill just spit it out. Im 15 and im a homosexual, I know this goes totally against God, and i really want to be a good christian, but nothing seems to change the way i feel, Ive been this way as long as i can remember even before i had sexual feelings i guess i knew from a freakishly young age. I feel utterly lost and Im terrified of going to hell. I really wish I could just change but I dont know if any of you will know or have a similar experiance I know its not my choice. I tried to tell my mother but she got all upset and told me to not be gay (???) she made me feel like I decided to be like this. In the end I couldnt keep on hurting her like this I just told her it was a phase. I have girlfriends from time to time and try really hard to love them like that but its just no good,im never that upset when the relationships end. I have had a boyfriend and it was just the best i have ever felt, each time i saw him it felt like my heart was fluttering out of my throat everything was perfect, we ended our relationship because he was moving away. I really want to change but i know I couldnt go through life alone, staying away from the sin I love Im running out of Ideas could anyone out there please help, Ide really appriciate all your prayers thank you. :\

Hey buddy, I'm glad you decided to be so open with us. First of all, I want you to know that I think you're a really bold guy for saying what you did, not many people have the guts to openly confess that they're homosexual. I also want to encourage you because you recognize that where you are is wrong, and that is a step in the process to climbing out of it. If you truly want to be free from this, you need to seek professional help. Find a good Christian professional psychologist whom you can trust. As a word of advice, I would say that in the meantime, simply make it a goal not to have a relationship of any kind, with either a boy or a girl. You're young, you are still trying to find your identity in Christ, and it won't do you any good to be in a relationship. I'm praying for you, friend.

[christsgirly]

Listen to me.Homosexuality is a temptation like any other.You just have to say no to it.If you are saved,then no sin will take that away,BUT you should live as Jesus called you to.DO NOT go out with girls to mask your feelings.If,in time,you do feel that love for a girl,you'll know.My prayers are with you always.You are an awesome creation of the living God,and don't you forget it.God will see you through this.I promise.God be with you,my brother in Christ.
-Brooke
P.S.PM me if you want to talk.

Thanks for your support, you have no idea how improtant it is to me. I keep on thinking about telling one of my church leaders but they are all like best friends with my parents (who are also leaders) and I just feel like they would tell them and I cant stand to even think what would happen if my dad found out. Im ready to get out of this mess though, I guess Ill just have to keep searching for the next step. I know I already said it but thanks again for your support and prayers, I feel alot better getting this off my chest and even better for getting such a posative and helpful response.

[ligatio_babe]

Hey. Don't beat yourself up over this. You didn't choose it, like you said. What you said about you having a boyfriend, and really liking him leads me to believe that you are possibly bisexual. I really can't give you the advice you'd want though. I've been in the same situation, and I hated myself for years. All I ever wanted was to be straight. I was so abusive to myself, and I was downright miserable. It wasn't until I came to accept who I am that I started to feel happy and love myself again. *shrugs* This is the way I am. I didn't choose it, and there's not a lot I can do about it. No sense putting myself through torture about it. Good luck with whatever you decide to do.

[Godssoloist]

Straystar, I think you should really get down on your knees before God and plead for HELP!! God answers prayers and He will do wonders in your life. Your situation can only be solved through prayer and talking to someone like a Pastor or a Youth Leader. Most of all talk to God as much as you can, try everyday and ask Him for help and He will truly help you. Im praying for you.

[*Anne*]

my dad knows gays that have gotten married and had kids! so God can definetly work! ill be praying. its awesome that ur willing to share!

[christsgirly]

I wish I could help you guys more than just by prayers.I feel so helpless.Know that my heart really does go out to you this night.

[Church Girl]

I WILL PRAY 4 YOU!!

Originally Posted by ligatio_babe

Hey. Don't beat yourself up over this. You didn't choose it, like you said. What you said about you having a boyfriend, and really liking him leads me to believe that you are possibly bisexual.

I dont really feel attracted to girls at all though, like each time ide go out with one I just ended up being in another dead end relationship when ide just rather be friends, which makes things really weird. I hate this damn sexuality, I feel so far from God, ide rather just be anti sexual it would be sooooo much easier, sorry im being impatient its the wrong attitude. Thank you all for your prayers your all an absolute blessing.