My Less-Than-Interesting Testimony :)

[blndnbrkn]

You know it’s an interesting thing my life. I’d never grown up in a Christian home and I never really thought anything of it. To me God was there but He wasn’t something to believe in. Life for me had been a series of ups and downs whether that was with or without God. When I moved back to my home town in grade 6 I was interested in going to youth. That was the beginning of my relationship with God.

Sure I loved God but at the same time so many people were pushing me into a relationship with Him that it wasn’t strong. I would be completely infatuated with God for a few months than I’d love someone or something else. This went on for a few years. Grade 7 was also a huge year for me and God. My parents had gotten into a huge accident on Sunday June 16th; Father’s Day. I hated God because He had allowed it to happen. My teacher made jokes about it and that hurt me so much. I was also in a bad relationship and during it I was wondering where God was. He was there but it took me a while to figure it out.

God really became real to me in grade 9. I started going back to youth and was doing alright; for a few months… Again I had moved on with my life and tried to leave God in the dust. I can tell you that that didn’t work so well. I started cutting and became extremely depressed. Suicide was the only thing that I thought of. Just after Christmas my Grandpa passed away. By this time I hated God so much it was almost unbearable. I wondered why He had left me; why He allowed these bad things to happen to me. Of course He never really allowed them to happen and He turned my experiences into something that I can use. This went on for over a year. During that year and a bit I was in the hospital twice for attempted suicide. That’s a place where God was with me the most even though I didn’t know it then.

In Feb of my grade 10 year once again God became real to me. He gave me some direction and hope; something I hadn’t had for a while. I rededicated my life to Him on Feb 20th. I had never felt so alive in my life! I gave up so many of the things that I knew God didn’t like and tried to live for Him. I had my ups and downs again but this time I was stronger in my faith. This time I loved Him more than anything else. In May I went to a huge event where God moved in me! That weekend I had only gone to find some answers but in reality I found so much more. I found God waiting there for me with open arms; telling me that everything would be alright. He gave me dreams that weekend. Those dreams are the hope that I now have. No, life isn’t easy but with God it doesn’t matter how hard it is because He will help me through it. I think about it sometimes and it blows my mind that this is only the beginning; this is only the start of my life with Him and it won’t ever end; that above all else is the thing that I hold onto. He is my light in dark places; my life raft when I have nothing else. Sure life isn’t all peaches and cream but then again no one ever said that it would be easy!

Wow. You went through a lot. Its so good to see how God is moving in young people's lives. I loved your testimony.

[HaveFaith2005]

Originally Posted by blndnbrkn

You know it’s an interesting thing my life. I’d never grown up in a Christian home and I never really thought anything of it. To me God was there but He wasn’t something to believe in. Life for me had been a series of ups and downs whether that was with or without God. When I moved back to my home town in grade 6 I was interested in going to youth. That was the beginning of my relationship with God.

Sure I loved God but at the same time so many people were pushing me into a relationship with Him that it wasn’t strong. I would be completely infatuated with God for a few months than I’d love someone or something else. This went on for a few years. Grade 7 was also a huge year for me and God. My parents had gotten into a huge accident on Sunday June 16th; Father’s Day. I hated God because He had allowed it to happen. My teacher made jokes about it and that hurt me so much. I was also in a bad relationship and during it I was wondering where God was. He was there but it took me a while to figure it out.

God really became real to me in grade 9. I started going back to youth and was doing alright; for a few months… Again I had moved on with my life and tried to leave God in the dust. I can tell you that that didn’t work so well. I started cutting and became extremely depressed. Suicide was the only thing that I thought of. Just after Christmas my Grandpa passed away. By this time I hated God so much it was almost unbearable. I wondered why He had left me; why He allowed these bad things to happen to me. Of course He never really allowed them to happen and He turned my experiences into something that I can use. This went on for over a year. During that year and a bit I was in the hospital twice for attempted suicide. That’s a place where God was with me the most even though I didn’t know it then.

In Feb of my grade 10 year once again God became real to me. He gave me some direction and hope; something I hadn’t had for a while. I rededicated my life to Him on Feb 20th. I had never felt so alive in my life! I gave up so many of the things that I knew God didn’t like and tried to live for Him. I had my ups and downs again but this time I was stronger in my faith. This time I loved Him more than anything else. In May I went to a huge event where God moved in me! That weekend I had only gone to find some answers but in reality I found so much more. I found God waiting there for me with open arms; telling me that everything would be alright. He gave me dreams that weekend. Those dreams are the hope that I now have. No, life isn’t easy but with God it doesn’t matter how hard it is because He will help me through it. I think about it sometimes and it blows my mind that this is only the beginning; this is only the start of my life with Him and it won’t ever end; that above all else is the thing that I hold onto. He is my light in dark places; my life raft when I have nothing else. Sure life isn’t all peaches and cream but then again no one ever said that it would be easy!

Keep on growing in the Lord. Beautiful testamony.

[LauraNicole]

that was an awesome testimony. i used to cut as well. but God saved me from myself. isn't He just awesome?

[*Anne*]

wow, accualy very intresting testimony!! i cut. .so, hey. . wow, God can and will realy use ur experiences!! keep growing- and - bloom!! ttyl!!