me, i guess

GodDreamer · 06-22-2005, 12:18 AM

i've grown up in a Christian house hold...i was pretty much born under a pew, i guess you could say

...although it wasn't until i was four years old, that i decided to give my life to the Lord. it wasn't until i was in middle school, in 7th grade that i decided to actually get serious about the serving God...middle school for me was probably the worse years i could have gone through...ugh...any ways, i went to my youth group's musical called "No Where Inbetween"...it's similar to "Heaven's Gates and Hell's Flames", and that night God revealed to me that i wasn't living the life any more...that i had slowly walked away...so, through many tears, i gave my life back to Him...then came high school...my freshman year was great for me! it was the first time ever that i actually had Christian friends, God blessed me abundantly...He also blessed me with my best friend, she and i have been probably through everything together...i also, found a new youth group that was in town and asked her to come with me...there she and i grew so much and a few months later she and i recieved the Baptism of the Holy Spirit with the Gift of Tongues...i recieved it first and then so did she, when her parents found out that she recieved the BHS, they were scared b/c they didn't believe in it, and they're not actually Christians. so they tried to look for reasons to take her out of the youth group, but that didn't happen until later....
then my tenth grade year hit...the year that i struggled with depression the most!! i had been threatened by one of my "friends", i was constantly getting into fights with my parents as well as my other friends...i was also dealing with my best friend's problems...which had to do with self-esteem...and i finally snapped and tried to kill myself...thankfully i didn't succeed! but about a month later my best friend, who had also been undergoing a lot of stress at the time, began cutting herself...during that whole time God gave me several verses. Proverbs 3:5-6 and Psalm 23. He made me realize that He had such huge plans for me and that through everything He was going to take care of me, that all i need to do is just trust Him and lean on Him.
Just this few months a lone, God has shown me so much! For the longest time i've felt like God has called me to be a pastor...and i still think He is...but for later in life...ultimately, i think God has something really huge in store for me...something that i probably won't realize what it is until the end, and then i'll be like, "oh, so that's what it was." i just really feel as though God is calling me to something bigger than i can see, and i really think it has something to do with reaching out to teen girls who struggle with self-esteem issues...like this summer, i'm going to be speaking at a Girl's Retreat, and i'll be speaking on self-esteem.
as of right now all i want is to get really on fire for God...to get to the point that i'm so saturated with the Holy Spirit that even my shadow heals people...i want to get to the point where i can literly put hospitals out of business b/c all the sick are healed...i want to get to the point that the Holy Spirit just completely shines right through my, like He did through Moses when he came back down the mountain from communing with God...i want to effect and to change the world around me... and i just want to be completely anointed, that every word that comes out of me is just drenched with anointing...i not only want this for me, but for all of us.

06-24-2005, 02:08 PM

That's awesome! I'm so glad that God chose you! You are truly blessed and thank you for the blessing you gave for us at the end of your post! Hey, I think God drove me to this post for a reason. I've been saved since I was 8 and I've grown spiritually in lots of things. I got baptized like at 9 and I feel close to God. But I got a huge doubt. It's about speaking in tongues. I feel a bit scared and unsure of it and I don't know why! I don't even know what to say! Do you think you can help me understand it better! Partly I really want the gift but I feeel nervous about it! Do you know what I mean?

GodDreamer · 06-24-2005, 03:46 PM

Hey! i understand being nervous about speaking in Tongues...i mean, after all you really haven't any clue what you're saying....but it's a Gift from God that bring peace that surpasses all understanding as well as confindence...boy does it brign confindence....i believe there's two different kinds of the Gift of Tongues...one thats for church edification...which you may hear someone speak out in during church and then an interpitation...and then there's one for self-edifcation...which is the one that most people have....it's a prayer language that only God understands....it's the Holy Spirit praying through you...for what you need to be praying about....you don't have to worry about not knowing what to say...all you have to do is ask for it....i suggest you to read Acts 2...it gives a really good description of it...also, don't get discouraged if you don't recieve it right away...i prayed for about 9 months to recieve the Baptism of the Holy Spirit (i believe that speaking in Tongues is edvidence of having the Baptism of the Holy Ghost)...then i finally had my youth group pray over me...next thing i noticed a word came to my mind and when i finally said it, it was like a babbling brook coming forth from my lips....it's a wonderful experience!! but sometimes that's not the case...a word coming to you...for example, my mother recieved it while praising the Lord in church...haha, she told me that while she was just praising Him, she heard someone praying in Tongues really loudly...then a few moments later she realized "hey, that's me!!", but it wasn't until two weeks later that she recieved the full fledged Gift of Tongues. well, hopefully this was helpful...if you want to talk some more, or have any more questions, just let me know!

06-26-2005, 03:43 PM

Yeah, my mom explained it to me and she said it's when you're praying and don't know what to say you're Spirit connects with God's Spirit and It speaks to you and tells you what to say. She recommended Acts too!

GodDreamer · 06-26-2005, 08:53 PM

YAY!

good i'm glad. don't forget, if you want it, all you have to do is ask for it!

06-29-2005, 12:59 AM

Wow...nice testimony...i have been through alot of that stuff and can really relate...lol by reading what you wrote i was thinking you were much older and then i saw you were sixteen and i was like WHOA! well good for you i am so happy you have found your faith....although speaking in tounges scares the heck out of me and if my family found out i did it they would probaly disown me...i understand it has alot to do with yout relationship with christ!!! so i am really happy for you and i hope one day i hear you preach!!!

06-22-2005, 12:18 AM	#1
GodDreamer GodDreamer Edit Apostle	me, i guess i've grown up in a Christian house hold...i was pretty much born under a pew, i guess you could say ...although it wasn't until i was four years old, that i decided to give my life to the Lord. it wasn't until i was in middle school, in 7th grade that i decided to actually get serious about the serving God...middle school for me was probably the worse years i could have gone through...ugh...any ways, i went to my youth group's musical called "No Where Inbetween"...it's similar to "Heaven's Gates and Hell's Flames", and that night God revealed to me that i wasn't living the life any more...that i had slowly walked away...so, through many tears, i gave my life back to Him...then came high school...my freshman year was great for me! it was the first time ever that i actually had Christian friends, God blessed me abundantly...He also blessed me with my best friend, she and i have been probably through everything together...i also, found a new youth group that was in town and asked her to come with me...there she and i grew so much and a few months later she and i recieved the Baptism of the Holy Spirit with the Gift of Tongues...i recieved it first and then so did she, when her parents found out that she recieved the BHS, they were scared b/c they didn't believe in it, and they're not actually Christians. so they tried to look for reasons to take her out of the youth group, but that didn't happen until later.... then my tenth grade year hit...the year that i struggled with depression the most!! i had been threatened by one of my "friends", i was constantly getting into fights with my parents as well as my other friends...i was also dealing with my best friend's problems...which had to do with self-esteem...and i finally snapped and tried to kill myself...thankfully i didn't succeed! but about a month later my best friend, who had also been undergoing a lot of stress at the time, began cutting herself...during that whole time God gave me several verses. Proverbs 3:5-6 and Psalm 23. He made me realize that He had such huge plans for me and that through everything He was going to take care of me, that all i need to do is just trust Him and lean on Him. Just this few months a lone, God has shown me so much! For the longest time i've felt like God has called me to be a pastor...and i still think He is...but for later in life...ultimately, i think God has something really huge in store for me...something that i probably won't realize what it is until the end, and then i'll be like, "oh, so that's what it was." i just really feel as though God is calling me to something bigger than i can see, and i really think it has something to do with reaching out to teen girls who struggle with self-esteem issues...like this summer, i'm going to be speaking at a Girl's Retreat, and i'll be speaking on self-esteem. as of right now all i want is to get really on fire for God...to get to the point that i'm so saturated with the Holy Spirit that even my shadow heals people...i want to get to the point where i can literly put hospitals out of business b/c all the sick are healed...i want to get to the point that the Holy Spirit just completely shines right through my, like He did through Moses when he came back down the mountain from communing with God...i want to effect and to change the world around me... and i just want to be completely anointed, that every word that comes out of me is just drenched with anointing...i not only want this for me, but for all of us.
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06-24-2005, 03:46 PM	#3
GodDreamer GodDreamer Edit Apostle	Hey! i understand being nervous about speaking in Tongues...i mean, after all you really haven't any clue what you're saying....but it's a Gift from God that bring peace that surpasses all understanding as well as confindence...boy does it brign confindence....i believe there's two different kinds of the Gift of Tongues...one thats for church edification...which you may hear someone speak out in during church and then an interpitation...and then there's one for self-edifcation...which is the one that most people have....it's a prayer language that only God understands....it's the Holy Spirit praying through you...for what you need to be praying about....you don't have to worry about not knowing what to say...all you have to do is ask for it....i suggest you to read Acts 2...it gives a really good description of it...also, don't get discouraged if you don't recieve it right away...i prayed for about 9 months to recieve the Baptism of the Holy Spirit (i believe that speaking in Tongues is edvidence of having the Baptism of the Holy Ghost)...then i finally had my youth group pray over me...next thing i noticed a word came to my mind and when i finally said it, it was like a babbling brook coming forth from my lips....it's a wonderful experience!! but sometimes that's not the case...a word coming to you...for example, my mother recieved it while praising the Lord in church...haha, she told me that while she was just praising Him, she heard someone praying in Tongues really loudly...then a few moments later she realized "hey, that's me!!", but it wasn't until two weeks later that she recieved the full fledged Gift of Tongues. well, hopefully this was helpful...if you want to talk some more, or have any more questions, just let me know!
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06-26-2005, 08:53 PM	#5
GodDreamer GodDreamer Edit Apostle	YAY! good i'm glad. don't forget, if you want it, all you have to do is ask for it! __________________ True beauty is when one can still smile through all of life's tears. "The bible is alive, it speaks to me" ~Martin Luther "Nobody ever died of laughter." ~Max Beerbohm "If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were." "Live as though Christ died yesterday, rose from the grave today, and is coming back tomorrow."
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06-29-2005, 12:59 AM	#6
lil_disciple lil_disciple Edit Guest	yeaya Wow...nice testimony...i have been through alot of that stuff and can really relate...lol by reading what you wrote i was thinking you were much older and then i saw you were sixteen and i was like WHOA! well good for you i am so happy you have found your faith....although speaking in tounges scares the heck out of me and if my family found out i did it they would probaly disown me...i understand it has alot to do with yout relationship with christ!!! so i am really happy for you and i hope one day i hear you preach!!!

06-24-2005, 02:08 PM	#2
1cutemonki 1cutemonki Edit Guest	That's awesome! I'm so glad that God chose you! You are truly blessed and thank you for the blessing you gave for us at the end of your post! Hey, I think God drove me to this post for a reason. I've been saved since I was 8 and I've grown spiritually in lots of things. I got baptized like at 9 and I feel close to God. But I got a huge doubt. It's about speaking in tongues. I feel a bit scared and unsure of it and I don't know why! I don't even know what to say! Do you think you can help me understand it better! Partly I really want the gift but I feeel nervous about it! Do you know what I mean?

06-26-2005, 03:43 PM	#4
1cutemonki 1cutemonki Edit Guest	Yeah, my mom explained it to me and she said it's when you're praying and don't know what to say you're Spirit connects with God's Spirit and It speaks to you and tells you what to say. She recommended Acts too!