I feel lost. . .I had to drop out

BackstageGirl · 03-09-2005, 07:01 PM

I had to officially resign from the position of stage manager in my school's drama club. They will be fine, because my assistant is fully trained to take over for me. However, I don't know how I'm going to handle it.

I prayed about leaving a few weeks ago, and felt that I should, but I didn't because I am the sort of person to tough something out, not just give up. Anyway, all of my grades dropped at least 5%, my friends were starting to act all weird around me, and when I would go to practice, I didn't feel right. So today I told Marie (the director) and Joyce (her mom) that I had to drop out. I felt so bad, but either the play went, or my grades, relationships, God and even myself would leave. I feel empty right now, which only shows me that I have been putting Cinderella before the plays, but I am happy because I am waiting for that wonderful feeling that comes when God fills a void.

I have to call Jon (my b/f) tonight when he gets off work to apologize for acting so out of it. I have to apologize to Abby for not helping her with her geometry. I have to apologize to Jared for losing my patience with him . I have to apologize to my dad for not keeping up my end of the house. I have to apologize to my teachers for not applying myself in their classes. I have to apologize to God for brushing him off and not listening to Him. I have to apologize to myself for compromising myself for a play.

I feel so lost, so depressed. Please pray that I will get through this. I need hugs, but I don't deserve them from my friends right now. . .

Damaris · 03-09-2005, 07:19 PM

*HUGS* *HUGS* *HUGS*I know somewhat how you feel. I'm not the kind that enjoys droping out of stuff either (who does?) and I had been praying for so long about droping out of gymanstics mostly for health issues. Finally I did, and felt horrible aobut it. The next week I quit my job, which I had been praying about too, and felt God's direction in it. That week I also temorarily quit driver's ed, although that wasn't my choice.

So I know how you feel about quitting. It's not fun, it's not honorable, and it makes others think ill of you and you think ill of yourself. But lsiten...if you felt God leading you to quit, then you have no reason to apologise to yourself. Think about what really matters int his life here on earth....following God is really the only thing that truely matters, and you did that above your own (dare I say it) pride. We've all got pride in ourselves, myself included....and you decided to do what God wanted to do and put Him above yourself. That is totally awesome!

Yes, perhaps you shouldn't have overloaded yourself by getting so involved in the play and dropping everything else, but you've just taken a HUGE step onto the right track! Now is a time of new beginnings, of a fresh start, a fresh look at what's important in life and doing that. I'm praying for you, that God will fill you with joy and that your friends will suround you with loving support.

Angela · 03-09-2005, 07:27 PM

hey, don't be so hard on yourself! we all mess up at times and get off track, but just keep trusting God and He'll help you through it. and i'll be praying for ya. and one more thing, put on a smile, forget about everything that happened, and start working at getting things back on track!!

*HUGS*

w.e.g. · 03-09-2005, 07:38 PM

i know exactly how you felt before never ended up quitting plays even when i had 4 or 5 on the go grades drop, freinds get upset (they won't care if they really like you ), but are grades the most important thing, i thought not, its always up to you to make the descision, you may have made the right one but the joy after pulling off a play is almost unparralelled

brothercory_2005 · 03-10-2005, 10:43 AM

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Originally Posted by Angela

hey, don't be so hard on yourself! we all mess up at times and get off track, but just keep trusting God and He'll help you through it. and i'll be praying for ya. and one more thing, put on a smile, forget about everything that happened, and start working at getting things back on track!!

*HUGS*

thats good stuff right there. just stay focused on Jesus.

Ed · 03-10-2005, 12:13 PM

It is better to do a few things well then many things badly and exhaust yourself at the same time! i think you made teh right decision

brothercory_2005 · 03-10-2005, 03:42 PM

i know you did. our God is a jealous God. he wants us to give him more attetion than anything. besides dont you think he desirves it?

BackstageGirl · 03-13-2005, 02:02 PM

Thanks you guys, you all rock. I am still dealing with the stress and feelings of failure, but between the support that you guys and my friends at school are giving me, it is easy to see why I am where I am in my life. I leave for a missions trip to Zacatecas, Mexico next week on Thurday. I am really looking forward to it. It will be nice to be able to touch the lives of the orphans down there. I can only pray that I can show them even half of the love that everyone has been showing me. Keep me in your prayers. You guys are so awesome. I love you all. God Bless. ~Kait~

Ed · 03-13-2005, 04:47 PM

Wow - thats the beeeeeeest thing to be doing when you feel things are going wrong - its God's logic but somehow doing mission work and serving others helps heal you TOO. Prob. cos God fills you with Love to give to others and flowing thru you it has a healing effect! God Bless

03-09-2005, 07:01 PM	#1
BackstageGirl BackstageGirl Edit AY! Newbie	I feel lost. . .I had to drop out I had to officially resign from the position of stage manager in my school's drama club. They will be fine, because my assistant is fully trained to take over for me. However, I don't know how I'm going to handle it. I prayed about leaving a few weeks ago, and felt that I should, but I didn't because I am the sort of person to tough something out, not just give up. Anyway, all of my grades dropped at least 5%, my friends were starting to act all weird around me, and when I would go to practice, I didn't feel right. So today I told Marie (the director) and Joyce (her mom) that I had to drop out. I felt so bad, but either the play went, or my grades, relationships, God and even myself would leave. I feel empty right now, which only shows me that I have been putting Cinderella before the plays, but I am happy because I am waiting for that wonderful feeling that comes when God fills a void. I have to call Jon (my b/f) tonight when he gets off work to apologize for acting so out of it. I have to apologize to Abby for not helping her with her geometry. I have to apologize to Jared for losing my patience with him . I have to apologize to my dad for not keeping up my end of the house. I have to apologize to my teachers for not applying myself in their classes. I have to apologize to God for brushing him off and not listening to Him. I have to apologize to myself for compromising myself for a play. I feel so lost, so depressed. Please pray that I will get through this. I need hugs, but I don't deserve them from my friends right now. . .
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03-09-2005, 07:19 PM	#2
Damaris Damaris Edit servant	HUGS HUGS HUGSI know somewhat how you feel. I'm not the kind that enjoys droping out of stuff either (who does?) and I had been praying for so long about droping out of gymanstics mostly for health issues. Finally I did, and felt horrible aobut it. The next week I quit my job, which I had been praying about too, and felt God's direction in it. That week I also temorarily quit driver's ed, although that wasn't my choice. So I know how you feel about quitting. It's not fun, it's not honorable, and it makes others think ill of you and you think ill of yourself. But lsiten...if you felt God leading you to quit, then you have no reason to apologise to yourself. Think about what really matters int his life here on earth....following God is really the only thing that truely matters, and you did that above your own (dare I say it) pride. We've all got pride in ourselves, myself included....and you decided to do what God wanted to do and put Him above yourself. That is totally awesome! Yes, perhaps you shouldn't have overloaded yourself by getting so involved in the play and dropping everything else, but you've just taken a HUGE step onto the right track! Now is a time of new beginnings, of a fresh start, a fresh look at what's important in life and doing that. I'm praying for you, that God will fill you with joy and that your friends will suround you with loving support. __________________ Let my heart be fixed on Thee My Lord, my life, my love Linger near and gently lead To rapturous joys above.
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03-09-2005, 07:27 PM	#3
Angela Angela Edit Apostle	hey, don't be so hard on yourself! we all mess up at times and get off track, but just keep trusting God and He'll help you through it. and i'll be praying for ya. and one more thing, put on a smile, forget about everything that happened, and start working at getting things back on track!! HUGS
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03-09-2005, 07:38 PM	#4
w.e.g. w.e.g. Edit Prophet/Prophetess	i know exactly how you felt before never ended up quitting plays even when i had 4 or 5 on the go grades drop, freinds get upset (they won't care if they really like you ), but are grades the most important thing, i thought not, its always up to you to make the descision, you may have made the right one but the joy after pulling off a play is almost unparralelled
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03-10-2005, 12:13 PM	#6
Ed Ed Edit Prophet/Prophetess	It is better to do a few things well then many things badly and exhaust yourself at the same time! i think you made teh right decision
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03-10-2005, 03:42 PM	#7
brothercory_2005 brothercory_2005 Edit Prophet/Prophetess	i know you did. our God is a jealous God. he wants us to give him more attetion than anything. besides dont you think he desirves it? __________________ brothercory_2005
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03-13-2005, 02:02 PM	#8
BackstageGirl BackstageGirl Edit AY! Newbie	Thanks you guys, you all rock. I am still dealing with the stress and feelings of failure, but between the support that you guys and my friends at school are giving me, it is easy to see why I am where I am in my life. I leave for a missions trip to Zacatecas, Mexico next week on Thurday. I am really looking forward to it. It will be nice to be able to touch the lives of the orphans down there. I can only pray that I can show them even half of the love that everyone has been showing me. Keep me in your prayers. You guys are so awesome. I love you all. God Bless. ~Kait~
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03-13-2005, 04:47 PM	#9
Ed Ed Edit Prophet/Prophetess	Wow - thats the beeeeeeest thing to be doing when you feel things are going wrong - its God's logic but somehow doing mission work and serving others helps heal you TOO. Prob. cos God fills you with Love to give to others and flowing thru you it has a healing effect! God Bless
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