Not knowing the point anymore

[Rissa]

I have just begun my sophomore year of college and im a nursing major. I am really starting to wonder if this is the right path for me. I am already stressed out and it is only the second week of school. I feel as if I am wanting to go back to my old ways which lead me down a dark path. But this life of trying to be nice and do the right things, seems to only be slapping me in the face. The people in my life don't appreciate the effort Im making to do right, but they end up only bringing up my past. Why move forward and try and do right when people only see the "old you". I feel like throwing in the towel and not caring anymore. Even though in the back of my mind, I know that Jesus does not want me to be thinking this way or retrograding to my old ways. Its so easy to fall back into temptation when the mind is weak and things seem to be going into a dissarray. I was seriously in the mindset last week to making a change for the better and wanting to do right in the sight of Jesus. But when feeling depressed, these are the worst times because that is when i fall deeper and deeper.... lost

[worshipHim]

Hey, I am praying for you. I understand what you mean about the not caring part. It is frustrating and it is dissapointing. Maybe some Bible verses will help:
James 1:2-4
My brethren count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have it's perfect work that you may be perfect and complete lacking nothing.
and
James 1:12 Blessed is the man who endures temptation; for when he has been approved, he will receive the crown of life which the Lord has promised to those who love Him.

[Kmstreet64]

to go along with worshipHim, Romans 5:3-5 says "Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us."

[Rissa]

thank yall reading the book of james somewhat helped me out

[worshipHim]

No problem!! Don't ever hesitate to pm me if you wanna talk. I'm ready to listen. praying for you!

[AliveInHim]

Originally Posted by Rissa

I have just begun my sophomore year of college and im a nursing major. I am really starting to wonder if this is the right path for me. I am already stressed out and it is only the second week of school. I feel as if I am wanting to go back to my old ways which lead me down a dark path. But this life of trying to be nice and do the right things, seems to only be slapping me in the face. The people in my life don't appreciate the effort Im making to do right, but they end up only bringing up my past. Why move forward and try and do right when people only see the "old you". I feel like throwing in the towel and not caring anymore. Even though in the back of my mind, I know that Jesus does not want me to be thinking this way or retrograding to my old ways. Its so easy to fall back into temptation when the mind is weak and things seem to be going into a dissarray. I was seriously in the mindset last week to making a change for the better and wanting to do right in the sight of Jesus. But when feeling depressed, these are the worst times because that is when i fall deeper and deeper.... lost

I am really sorry about what you are going through right now. I have gone through similar things actually. School is stressful no matter how you cut it. It is hard for everyone really. I don't care if you take 18 hours or 3 -- it's rough. The people in your life may not appreciate the effort, but God does.

Recently, I got certified to graduate with my Bachelor's. I am thrilled. I have been through SO much in the past few years. Finally, all the hard work has paid off. Yet, many of the responses that I have gotten have been "Oh" or "Oh but you are smart, so it's easy for you." The problem is, it doesn't come across as a compliment. It comes across as an insult. I have worked my rear-end off to get where I am right now, and it just seems like no one realizes it. No one sees how hard I am working. No one sees the 8 hour study sessions that I pull sometimes. No one sees all of the extra work that I do just to make sure I understand the concepts to a mastery level rather than just memorizing them. It seems like no one gets what I am doing. I was then reminded of a verse.

"Whatever your task, put yourselves into it, as done for the Lord and not for you masters, since you know that from the Lord you will receive the inheritance as your reward; you serve the Lord Christ." Colossians 3:23-24

Your work isn't for your professors. It isn't for your friends. It isn't for anyone else in your life. It is for Christ because above ALL else you are serving Him. I had to remember this as well. I may not get ANY recognition for what I have done here, but God is smiling. I don't have to remind him of how much mess I went through because he was there with me every single step of the way. He went through it WITH me. He knows what it means for me to get this far. He lived with me through all these emotions and all the hard times.

I know that it is hard to go through times like this, but remember, you are serving Christ -- not them.

Amanda

[Rissa]

Thanks Amanda. First off I have to say CONGRATS!!!
I cant wait until i can say all the hard work and effort I have put in has actually paid off. Those scriptures are really helpful. Being in this forum, has made me read the bible more. And when I get down and depressed or stressed I have scriptures I can always refer back to on. So I must truly thank you all. I believe I am doing better in the area of my "studies" because I am not as stressed as I was 2 weeks ago and I believe it is due to the fact of me being connected to this forum. As far as being LOST, I still feel this way because I am not as close to Christ as I should be. I am struggling with doing rebellious things and not following HIS WORD.